Hello Unity Friends and Family,
“Willing To Be a Part Of the Party”
I used to become very anxious when it was time to go to a party or large gathering. I was self-conscious because I was certain that the people there were watching me and waiting for me to embarrass myself.
One night, a few years into my healing I was getting ready to go to a formal dinner dance in a midtown Manhattan hotel. I had bought a brand new tuxedo and I thought I looked good, but I was anxious. At that point, I had a very steady practice of prayer that I used all day long in order to know that I was connected. As I looked into the mirror and thought about how I didn’t want to have a less than great night just because I was afraid of what people might think about me, I went into prayer. I was surprised at the words I said. “God, help me to be part of the party.” I was thrilled at that. Those words resonated with me. I never plan what I’m going to say in a prayer. I let the words reveal to me what I am thinking and what I really want.
I went confidently to that event and I had the best time. I had great conversations and I danced like I had never danced before. If I was watched that night, I’m sure it was because people enjoyed seeing me have such a fun time. I was really impressed at the results of this prayer and my willingness to participate in it. I had a great time and I didn’t hurt myself or anybody else. What more could I want from a fancy evening?
Ever since then, if I am feeling anxious about being in front of a group or in the group itself, I say the same prayer. Once I’ve said the prayer then I know that it’s done and I can go on about my business of serving. Oh, did I mention? Having a great time where nobody gets hurt is great service to your community.
Welcome to the party,