Willing To Be a Part Of the Party

Hello Unity Friends and Family,
“Willing To Be a Part Of the Party”

I used to become very anxious when it was time to go to a party or large gathering.  I was self-conscious because I was certain that the people there were watching me and waiting for me to embarrass myself.  

One night, a few years into my healing I was getting ready to go to a formal dinner dance in a midtown Manhattan hotel.  I had bought a brand new tuxedo and I thought I looked good, but I was anxious.  At that point, I had a very steady practice of prayer that I used all day long in order to know that I was connected.  As I looked into the mirror and thought about how I didn’t want to have a less than great night just because I was afraid of what people might think about me, I went into prayer.  I was surprised at the words I said.  “God, help me to be part of the party.”  I was thrilled at that.  Those words resonated with me.  I never plan what I’m going to say in a prayer.  I let the words reveal to me what I am thinking and what I really want.

I went confidently to that event and I had the best time.  I had great conversations and I danced like I had never danced before.  If I was watched that night, I’m sure it was because people enjoyed seeing me have such a fun time.  I was really impressed at the results of this prayer and my willingness to participate in it.  I had a great time and I didn’t hurt myself or anybody else.  What more could I want from a fancy evening?

Ever since then, if I am feeling anxious about being in front of a group or in the group itself, I say the same prayer.  Once I’ve said the prayer then I know that it’s done and I can go on about my business of serving.  Oh, did I mention?  Having a great time where nobody gets hurt is great service to your community.
    
Welcome to the party,

Shawn